I had a dream last night about my dog, Teddi. I woke up sad and missing her. In my diary I found she has been gone since 2005. Where did those 8 years go? She was such an important part of my life and still is such an important part. I am so grateful for the life lessons I learned from Teddi.
Time is such an interesting thing. It seems to go so slow during certain seasons in our lives and so quickly in others. I sometimes feel as if life is just a big loop really, discoveries, mistakes, experiences, innovations go around and around. I think I would like to make some big discovery in my lifetime, but really someone probably already figured it out.
I was reading this morning and the theme of do justice, love mercy and walk humbly before God continues to come into my heart and soul. The interesting thing about these concepts is that they don't require the passage of time to achieve. These are things we can do each moment of our lives. From the beginning to the end. We don't have to reach a goal or title or status to be able to do these things. Anyone can do these things...no time involved. Day by day and moment by moment. This is why I love the Word it brings such profound simplicity into my life. It sounds so simple...
Today I will choose to love, not because it is easy, but because it is right. My dog loved me. She was good in so many ways, but she had a problem. Her problem was that she was violent against other animals. She was (i suspect) bred to fight. No matter what we tried she would not socialize with other animals. One day she attacked another dog, fortunately the dog was okay. Unfortunately, she ran out of the front door and a young girl was there witnessing the sight and was terrified. I was terrified, what if she had mistaken a small child for an animal. Perhaps I acted too swiftly, but we put her down. I could not stand the thought of her harming anyone, child, pet, anyone. The most important thing for me was to know that she would not be remembered as the "pit bull" that hurt someone. I think it was one of the hardest things I have ever done, to watch her eyes as the life left them. I didn't want to not be there, I was the one who made the decision. I wanted to hold her until the end and somehow let her know that I do love her.
When I woke up I thought about the flood that was sent upon the earth and how the LORD was grieved that he had done that thing and set his rainbow in the sky to let us know he would never bring destruction by flood again. He did it because of the violence of mankind according to the Word. I put down Teddi because of the violence breed into her that she had no control over whatsoever. It is a wound that doesn't want to heal in someways...even after all this time. I guess that is love.
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