Surprise

Yesterday I learned of some surprising news.  It was a joyful discovery and wonderful to hear. Listening to the news, we often don't here the good stories that are happening in the lives of those around us.  Good News is nice!

It is also nice to have someone in your life that wants to share their good news .  It is a sign of friendship and having a friend is really nice.  Since I have moved so much in my life it has been difficult to retain friends and I don't have any long term friends.  My husband has become my dearest friend and for that I am grateful.  He listens and loves me.

I do long to be a good friend, one that has been around, but I don't think it will ever happen.  I have not had the opportunity to do it.  I have moved 26 times in my life.  I have lived in 2 countries, 5 states and 15 cities.  At this time I am 46 years old.  I have attended 16 schools, held 19 jobs and attended 7 churches.  I have worked with laundry service, children, parents, youth, churches, food service, bar tending, pool hall, elder care, grocery store, food pantry, fast food, homeless, domestic violence, sexual assault survivors, drug addicts, and incarcerated persons.  I don't think I know how to stay still.  I have been hardwired for change.  This is something people I care dearly about don't really understand.  I find that when I leave others feel hurt or sad, but what else can I do?  How do you stop?  Even my family has become a victim of my leaving, how sad.  But, I never feel like I am leaving as much as I am going.  Perhaps that is why I go.  I never leave I am always moving forward, learning and growing and contributing what I have learned along the way.  My heart holds dear all those who I have loved.  Over time I have learned that those who have been left don't feel the same, often they may feel that I was not loyal to them.  Maybe I really didn't like them.  But the truth is so much different.  I do love them, each and every one.  On average I have changed something in my life every two years and I will admit, I love it!  I love meeting new people and seeing new things.  I love learning more about the world around me and growing into a more compassionate person.  So for all those I love...please remember I have never stopped loving you.  Each of you I carry in my heart and I share the love you poured into me with those I encounter on this journey I call my life.