Spring

Today is a "typical" Spring day.  Not too cool not too hot sunny this morning and a chance of scattered showers.  It is absolutely beautiful outside right now.

I did do some work in the garage yesterday.  I felt much better now that I actually did something.  Now I just need to finish.

Today I will be going to the food bank.  I made some banana bread that I am going to take with me and see if anyone wants some.  I have been awake since my husband got up for work today, so I have already accomplished so much today.  That is a good thing.  We are planning on planting some seeds in our shared garden.  I am unsure if they will take, but we are going to plant some chard and kale.  I also want to plant some herbs for the kitchen.  I would like to grow fresh herbs and have them for cooking. 

I am feeling much better than I did a few days ago.  I do not find myself in a dark place that often anymore, it is nice to be feeling more sane today.  I am a bit sleepy from getting up before 4am, but at least I am not spinning in circles.

I read a devotional today about God's silence, and what lessons may be there for us when He isn't speaking.  I think that is when I go dark myself, when I do not have clear direction from HIM.  He is so faithful to guide my path.  I am glad for the reminder of my dependence upon HIM.  It helps me to understand what is me and what is HIM.  I need the reminder.  I have been so spoiled by the grace and goodness that has been extended to my through the Holy Spirit by the blood of Jesus, I probably take HIM for granted and don't appreciate all that HE does.  As soon as he pulls back I don't take it for granted though...ugh...I am a terrible person.  It is by HIS mercy that I am able to do any good at all in this life and am I ever reminded when I find I only have myself to solve life's questions.  HE never leaves us in silence for long, it is a good thing.  Silence does not mean HE has left us.  I remember there were times that I did not interfere with my own children and would let them work through some issues, when they were small.  I wanted them to be able to problem solve.  Just as I was there, but not interfering, I know that our GOD is faithful, because HE said HE would never leave us or forsake us.  He has never left me completely and for that I am so grateful.  But sometimes HE has been silent.  I am grateful for that too.  In the end I know that HE loves me, that HE loved me enough to pay the penalty for my sin so that I could recieve the "Gift of God" of eternal life rather than the eternal death I was already living,  Thank you FATHER for the Gift of your SON.

Be Good and Do Good