somedays it is harder than others to find hope...today is one of those days...i am seeking to hold on to hope...but for some reason today it feels far from my reach. I think as i am typing this that it is a form of selfishness...I am too inward focused today. It is something that i have been doing this week with purpose...trying to think about past hurts to draw them up and get rid of them. I will be bringing all of my baggage to the LORD tonight in a time of prayer in hopes that I will be rid of all anger and hurt and unforgivness or what ever else may be lurking in my heart that I have buried and don't want to undig from the rubble of my mind and heart. I want to be a vessel clean and spotless before the LORD...ready to take in HIS love and be a person that won't attach my own baggage to that offering unto the LORD. This has been a week of tryiing to remember in order to forget. I guess that is kinda weird....but i want to let go of these heavy bags of sorrow.
I have still been having my wierd headache and i am unsure what that means...hope it isn't high blood pressure or????
I guess that is part of my concern. I will take that to the LORD too...
may the LORD have His way and His say...as my dear borther used to say
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