Finding myself...Recently I watched a powerful movie and one of the players asks the question, "Who am I?" a question I find myself struggling with the past few weeks. So many tragic events and looming tragic possibilities for this life hang in front of my eyes. This is the part of me I try so hard to bury in the Grace that I have found in Jesus. This one that sees only the tragic. I long to be the person that finds beauty and hope in the world around me and yet it is so foreign and strange to my natural mind. My mind is so dark and hopeless...yet in Christ I have been set free! I'm free, I'm free, I'm free indeed! So I love that question, "Who am I?" I am a mixture of good and bad, of hope and despair, of selfishness and generosity. Is it ever possible to free oneself completely in this life from the "true man that I am". And should we?
Grace, unmerited favor, something I did not earn. That may be why is it so important to me. Without the LOVE of God for me, where would I be? My heart is dark. Which I find so interesting, because I believe that most people would not understand that blackness and thick sorrow exsits within my mind. I run from it into the loving arms of ONE who is better, ONE in whom there is no darkness only light, no shadow of turning.
There are times like today and yesterday Faith must arise and believe that HE alone can save me from myself. In faith alone can I look at today and understand that my future is secure, because of the Blood of Jesus Christ...I fall so short of HIS LOVE. His MERCY is new everyday and today I woke up to a new day with life in my body, so Mercy is alive in me. May my heart embrace the light and not the dark, may hope arise and not despair, may generosity be my daily bread and not selfishness.
Lord please help me today. Show me the path of righteousness. Guide my heart and my hands to do good all the days of my life and not evil. To LOVE and not hate. To forgive and not be bitter. Truth is my longing, show me Truth.
You are a Good God, Holy, Righteous and True. Worthy of all Honor, Glory and Praise! There is none like YOU in all the earth. May your HOLY SPIRIT come and help me and us all, guide us into all truth and righteousness. We all need YOU.
